It was some time in 2011. I wasn’t very “fond” of Sai Baba,
owing to the ignorant behavior of mine and lack of merits, possibly. But the
inevitable must happen. God has his own ways. I was pulled towards Baba in a
very skillful way by Him.
I was diagnosed with some kind of allergy on my back. It was
ever increasing and so I had to go through a blood test. I gave my blood sample
for test and went back home. During this time of waiting for the reports, I
randomly wanted to visit Sai Baba’s temple at Rajpur road. My mom refused and
didn’t allow me to go there since it was very far from my place. So I didn’t go
but we had a heated discussion over it. I went to a Sai temple nearby, just for
the sake of it, half-heartedly. I really wanted to visit the other one! On my
way back, I collected my reports and I was diagnosed with Jaundice. To some, it may appear that post visiting the
temple I was diagnosed with a disease which is kind of a bad thing. To me, it
was a blessing, a blessing from Sai Baba. I strongly believe that by making me
suffer for three long months, Sai Baba destroyed the demerits of my past
births and the present and only when my
merits and demerits were balanced, only when my Karma was destroyed by making me suffer, I
was blessed with Him as my Guru. He accepted me as His Bhakta and is since then
taking care of me, making me feel his presence around me all the time and
proving it to me time and again that I am under His watch and under His
protection and no bad thing or calamity can ever shake my roots or last longer
than my capability to endure it.
I was down on bed for three long months. I had to go through
blood tests every week and each time, the reports got worse. The nights were
sleepless, the days were all dull. The only time I used to get to see the
outside was during the visits to the hospital. I was totally bedridden and my
weight went down from 50kgs to 39kgs! The suffering wasn’t ending and it was on
this one day when it struck my mom that she once didn’t allow me to visit the
Sai Mandir at Rajpur road. It was decided that we would leave for it
immediately and we did! We went there, prayed. And from there, we took a
beautiful picture of Sai Baba which I hung on a wall of my room.
That darshan,
the pic, it refreshed me. It instilled a faith inside that things will be fine
now. On the very same evening, my reports came and I was disappointed to see
that it still got worse. I was so disappointed that I went to that picture of
Baba and fought with him, questioned him, “Why still?”
The very night, I was hospitalized. It may appear to be a worsened situation but in reality, it was best for me. After being hospitalized, my condition began to improve and in three days, my jaundice started coming down at a miraculous rate! What a wonderful Leela of Baba it was!
As I connect all the dots of the story, my inability to go to the temple, my falling sick, my going to the temple after three months, putting up Baba’s picture, getting hospitalized and finally starting to recover from the very same night, it all falls in place. My disease, as I strongly believe, was only to clear my demerits so that finally I could be blessed with Sai’s Grace. And I indeed am.
An ignorant fellow I am, not very content at times with what I get, not very good at tongue and even harsh at times but I know that with time, each and every single pervading vice in me will go away as my Sai continues to make me better each day by his wonderful Leelas which he plays with me. It’s been almost three years now and I feel Sai around me. He’s always been there. I know he’s watching. He’s seen me at my best and smiled me and told me that He’s proud of me and He has also seen me at my worst and made me realize my mistakes. I pray to Him that he be there with me to guide and protect me and my loved ones always. It is on account of his Grace that I got an urge to write my experiences with Sai.
“Anant koti bhraman nayak rajadhiraj yogiraj parabhrama shri sachhidanand sadguru sai nath maharak ki jai”
The very night, I was hospitalized. It may appear to be a worsened situation but in reality, it was best for me. After being hospitalized, my condition began to improve and in three days, my jaundice started coming down at a miraculous rate! What a wonderful Leela of Baba it was!
As I connect all the dots of the story, my inability to go to the temple, my falling sick, my going to the temple after three months, putting up Baba’s picture, getting hospitalized and finally starting to recover from the very same night, it all falls in place. My disease, as I strongly believe, was only to clear my demerits so that finally I could be blessed with Sai’s Grace. And I indeed am.
An ignorant fellow I am, not very content at times with what I get, not very good at tongue and even harsh at times but I know that with time, each and every single pervading vice in me will go away as my Sai continues to make me better each day by his wonderful Leelas which he plays with me. It’s been almost three years now and I feel Sai around me. He’s always been there. I know he’s watching. He’s seen me at my best and smiled me and told me that He’s proud of me and He has also seen me at my worst and made me realize my mistakes. I pray to Him that he be there with me to guide and protect me and my loved ones always. It is on account of his Grace that I got an urge to write my experiences with Sai.
“Anant koti bhraman nayak rajadhiraj yogiraj parabhrama shri sachhidanand sadguru sai nath maharak ki jai”
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